~ You killed me with your smile.

31.10.10

Did I say something stupid
There goes one more mistake...
Do I bore you with my problems? Is that why you turn away?
Do you know how hard I tried to become what you want me to be?
Take me
This is all that I've got, this is all that I'm not
All that I'll ever be
I've got flaws, I've got faults
Keep searching for your perfect heart
It doesn't matter who you are, we all have our scars
We all have our scars

You say don't act like a child
But what if its a father I need?
It's not like you don't know what you got yourself into
Don't tell me I'm the one who's naive
Do you know how hard I've tried to become who you want me to be?
Take me
This is all that I've got, this is all that I'm not
All that I'll ever be
I've got flaws, I've got faults
Keep searching for your perfect heart
It doesn't matter who you are, we all have our scars
We all have our scars

Come on, just let it go
These are things you can't control
Your expectations, your explainations
Don't make sense to me
You and your alternatives
Don't send me to your therapists
Deep down, I know what you mean
And I'm not sure that's what I wanna be

Take me
This is all that I've got, this is all that I'm not
All that I'll ever be
I've got flaws, I've got faults
Keep searching for your perfect heart
It doesn't matter who you are. We all have our scars.
We all have our scars

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Did I say something stupid?
There goes one more mistake..
¿Cómo es capaz de mandarme eso?

"nadie influya en tus pensamientos con mensajes de lucha y mentiras que confunden tu cabeza y en vez de aclarar oscurecen"

Tengo quince años, de los cuales trece los viví sin él. 
Sinceramente, estas cosas me enojan a un extremo ridículo.

¿Cómo querés que piense bien de vos, si desapareciste totalmente de mi vida?
Ahora aparecés como si nada, pretendiendo que yo y mi hermana te recibamos con los brazos abiertos y ambas con sonrisas hipócritas en la cara.

No entiendo, sinceramente. Y es molesto.

Lo único que hace mi familia es cuidarme, y evitar que yo sufra denuevo.

30.10.10

Escribo esto para que te enteres. Escribo para que entiendas. Escribo para que te ordenes. Escribo para que te acerques. Escribo para que te des cuenta.
Sin frases desvalorizadas, sin compromisos, sin poner las cosas en juego.
Tratando, modificando, revalorizando, intentando, sonriendo, temiendo, queriendo, ergo: amando.

Sencillas palabras, ¿ah?
No cantar victoria.

Hoy fusilé con la mirada: quería la soledad, quería la intimidad, quería la confianza, quería las palabras correctas.

Palabras correctas:

Importancia aparente, cero.
Relación.
Sentimiento.
Atención.
Detalle.
Paranoia.

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Del cielo a la tierra, sin punto de partida, un sentimiento de vuelo, genera locura. Se le llama así, a algo desvalorizado. Se llama así, a un "te amo".

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Textos raros.
Códigos.

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Rompecabezas en una misma cabeza. Frase desvalorizada, por tercera vez. Telegrama.

No hay sentido, nunca lo habrá, nunca se entenderá.

Palabras sencillas.

Algo extraño, sentimiento de vacío, necesidad de abrazos constantes, soledad.
Si hablo de extrañar, y eso es "soledad", revela un punto de fusilación.

Algo aún peor, un sentimiento cargado, lleno de ansias y carácter. Se aferra. Tentación.
Si hablo de necesidad de contacto, y eso es "intimidad", revela un punto de fusilación.

Algo sincero, un sentimiento que relaja, que deja todo atrás y deja hablar de todo lo demás. Confianza.
Si hablo de un espacio para mis sentimientos, y eso es "confianza", revela un punto de fusilación.

Algo triste, un sentimiento muy temeroso, el miedo a decir cosas incorrectas, miedo a la desilusión.
Si hablo de expresarme correctamente, y eso es "palabras correctas", revela un punto de fusilación.

¿Vamos comprendiendo?
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Palabras correctas, ¿quién define qué es lo correcto y lo que no? Quizás estoy en el lado recíproco de la situación, quizás tengo que "hacer exacto lo incorrecto".

Relación = Dos personas. Un sentimiento.
Sentimiento = Algo invaluable. Algo que debe tener atención.
Atención = Mostrar la importancia que tiene uno del otro. Mostrar el detalle.
Detalle = LLegar al punto de la paranoia.
Paranoia = LLegar a la depresión por malintepretar las cosas. Por no cumplir los puntos nombrados.

Entonces, ¿comprendiste?

Mañana lo leo en tu compañía.
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Analizar. No perder el detalle.
Relacionar. Entender.

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Made.
Will the river flows in you?
As I awoke this morning and realized you were gone
I wondered what life would be like if we were over and done

And i know that
I can't replace your face,
your touch,
your smile
I miss you like crazy, i'm lost inside

I promise i'll wait for you wasting my time trying to count all the tears i cry

When i'll rest my head tonight, this house just won't feel like home
And i'll lay there helplessly yearning, staring all night at the phone

And i know that I can't replace your face,
your touch,
your smile
I miss you like crazy, I'm lost inside

I promise i'll wait for you wasting my time trying to count all the tears I cry
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No, I can't replace your face, your touch, your simile. I miss you like crazy, i'm lost inside. I promise i'll wait for you wasting my time, trying to count all the tears I cry.

29.10.10

"Quien no advierte tu ausencia ni añora los ritos de un Encuentro, no podrá sentirse pleno con tu presencia, ni sabrá vivir ese Momento"

27.10.10

Tan sólo soy una chica delante de un chico pidiéndole que la quiera.

20.10.10

Infect me with your love
& fill me with your poison
When you feel you're alone, cut off from this cruel world
Your instincts, telling you to run
Listen to your heart
Those angel voices...
They'll sing to you, there'll be a guide back home.

When life leaves us blind, love keeps us kind
It keeps us kind

When you've suffered enough, and your spirit is breaking
Your growing desperate from the fight

Remember you're loved, and you always will be
This melody will bring, will bring you right back home

When life leaves us blind, love keeps us kind

When Life leaves us blind, 
Love keeps us kind

17.10.10

-Dr. Lemon (Rico)
-Gancia One (NO.)
-Whiscola (FTW)
-Cerveza con Pepsi (...pasa)


Eso fue mi sábado :D
Lo que alguna vez me hirió en el pasado, se está arreglando en mi presente.

10.10.10

Tardé mucho en decirlo.

La pérdida de algo invaluable, es lo que lo hace un recuerdo inolvidable.

Feliz Cumpleaños a John Lennon.

6.10.10

Links:

Every rose, has it's thorn.
I hope you don't.
Don't live a lie, this is your one life 
Don't live a lie you won't get lost: Just walk, just walk.
It's a liberty walk, it's a liberty walk

Here's to all the ones tryin' to hold you back, tryin' to make you feel like you're less than that, giving nothing more better than to make you crack, 
but really just tryin to push your dreams off track
And you know in the end it'll be okay, 'cause all that really matters are the steps you take and everything else falls into place
There's no price to pay, I say

We're alright, we're gonna get it when we live it.

It's a liberty walk: walk saying goodbye to the people who tied you up
It's a liberty walk: walk feeling your heart again, breathing new oxygen
It's a liberty walk: walk free yourself, slam the door, 
not a prisoner anymore

It's a liberty walk
Don't stop, keep on walking and don't stop, keep on talking-


Don't be afraid to make a move; It won't hurt you just do what you were born to do and everything works out right.
Don't listen to all the people who hate 'cause all they do is help make your mistakes for you
But they don't own you, I just told you

Alright, we're gonna get it when we live it

It's a liberty walk: walk saying goodbye to the people who tied you up
It's a liberty walk: walk feeling your heart again, breathing new oxygen
It's a liberty walk: walk free yourself, slam the door,
not a prisoner anymore

It's a liberty walk

Just walk this way
Don't like what you do
Don't take the abuse
Move to the truth
People come on that means you

It's a liberty walk: walk saying goodbye to the people who tied you up
It's a liberty walk: walk feeling your heart again, breathing new oxygen
It's a liberty walk: walk free yourself, slam the door
not a prisoner anymore

It's a liberty walk
Don't stop, keep on walking and, don't stop, keep on talking and don't stop, keep on walkingWalk, walk, walk.